Ingrid, Pipo, and Dalton made this beautiful card for us.
This morning, I was getting ready for bed (yes, I have an odd sleep schedule) and heard Lita messing around in a corner. I went to get her and noticed she was all wet. She had peed herself again. I cuddled her in my lap and got the distinct message that she was sad and miserable.
She had not eaten - we were syringe-feeding her. She was not drinking - we were syringing her water. Her brain was really messed up. We don't know why she improved for a few days and then crashed two days ago again. I guess that will always be a mystery. We had hoped against all hope that she would improve again.
As I was holding her this morning, I decided that I would give her a few more hours but that if she did not improve that I would help her to the Bridge. I just could not see her so sad and miserable. It was heartbreaking. I also got the distinct impression as I held her that it would be the last time I ever held her.
I put her down so I could get ready for sleep. I got ready to read and found Lita behind my bed. I picked her up and took her to her, "bad man, D. I thought she would like to sleep by him. She loved to sleep by him.
I read a bit and came back to check on her. D told me she was shivering and panting. I read a little more nd came back to check on her again. D said it was time.
So I called my friend DM, and she came as soon as she could. Traffic was bad.
I held Lita while she gasped for air. I felt so helpless because there was nothing I could do but wait for our ride to the ER so they could help her to the Bridge. There was no time to call Lap of Love or another vet to come to the house. She was in distress and needed help right that second.
She coughed a few times, howled a couple of times, kept gasping for air. It was torture to watch her that way.
Then, she left us.
We wrapped her up in one of her favorite fleece blankets with her head sticking out and took her to our vet. They let us spend time with her before we left.
I chose an urn for her to come home in.
My little baby and friend is gone. She was my friend for 14 years. I cannot imagine how we will go on without her. I love her so much and just keep crying.
Did I wait too long? Maybe. Do I regret seeing if she would come back? No. I only regret that she had such a tough time in her last minutes. I would have done anything to ease her suffering.
We love you so, so much, Lita. More than you will ever know. We will miss you beyond words.
Milita
July 22, 2003 - September 12, 2018
Sending you lotsa purrs and big hugs. I know you'll miss her so much.
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry to hear about Lita. You did everything you could for her and I know she knew she was loved. My thoughts are with you.
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We are so sorry, Sierra. Thank you for loving Lita so much, and for giving her such a good home all these years. Sending you purrs, prayers and all good thoughts as you mourn the loss of your special baby girl.
ReplyDeleteOh, That must have been so awful for you, indeed.
ReplyDeleteYou sure were doing a mighty fine and loving job to try and get her to rally, but alas, to no avail.
I am sorry you had to watch all that suffering...
You showered her with all the love you had to give, and that was all she knew, even at the end.
Rest peacefully now, Milita, and soon you will be flying with beautiful shining strong Angel-wings; over endless meadows and catnip fields. I know you will find my furblings there, too...
Sending loving purrs and hugs to you at this time of loss and feeling bereft.
((((( ♥ )))))
we are so sorry for your loss. sending you lots of purrs of comfort right now.
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My human and I are so sorry about Lita. Nobody can predict how slowly or quickly a kitty can go downhill. Lots and lots and lots of purrs to you.
ReplyDeleteOh Sierra, I am so sorry. You did everything you possibly could for Lita. You gave her a life full of love and you were with her when she could no longer stay. I know the terrible pain and emptiness you are feeling, but try and take some comfort that she is free of pain now and will rejuvenated at the Bridge. My love and hugs to you.
ReplyDeleteSo very sorry. Sending hugs.
ReplyDeleteOh Sierra, I'm so sorry. My heart is breaking for you. You're in my thoughts as you mourn your beautiful girl.
ReplyDeleteI am sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
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Rest In Peace, Angel Milita.
ReplyDeleteWe are so very sad about dear Lita and our hearts are broken. We understand the heartache and empty feeling and send you our best purrs, hugs and all of our love.
ReplyDeleteSo very sorry. Many purrs.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry. Lita was a beautiful girl who will never be forgotten. XO
ReplyDeleteWe’re very sorry for your loss. Sending purrs of comfort.
ReplyDeleteSo so sorry. She was such a lucky cat to have had such a good home and knew so much love.
ReplyDeleteFarewell, beautiful Lita. Soft prayers and hugs for you Sierra in your time of sorrow.
ReplyDeleteI’m so very sorry. She is perfect again. Sending purrs of comfort for your broken heart.
ReplyDeleteOh Sierra, I’m so very, very sorry. I know your heart is broken into what feels like a million pieces. You loved Lita with every ounce of your heart. She was so lucky to have you and you were so lucky to have her.
ReplyDeleteSending you my love, comfort, and purrs.
Sierra, we are so very sorry for your loss. We know what you are going through. You were such an awesome catmom to her and gave her the best life possible. Comforting purrs, hugs and prayers for you and D.
ReplyDeleteShe is at peace now and will be waiting for you at the Bridge. She had a lifetime of love. Don't dwell on the last few minutes but on how much love she brought to your life. I have lost cats that were very ill in the end but when talking to an animal communicator after they say that those moments were nothing 0 just a blimp in time. what they remember is our love.
ReplyDeleteSierra, I'm so sorry. I know how much you loved Lita and if love could have saved her, she'd still be here. Lita was lucky to have you as her mom. (((hugs)))
ReplyDeleteThere is never any point in second-guessing oneself in such a situation. We all do the best we can with what we have at the time. Our decisions are based on love and compassion; that’s what we do for our furry ones. Milita loved you, and was loved. She knew that, and took that with her to where she is now. Godspeed, Milita.
ReplyDeletewe are so sorree. We know how it feels and your heart iz borked.
ReplyDeleteGodspeed your journey to heaven Lita ~~~~~~~ we are truly sorry as we understand what your last days were like.
ReplyDeletewe know if you could "speak" you would not only say, thanx mom...for everything.....you would also say....I love you too and I always will.
we send hugs and loves to you, mom and carmine ♥♥♥♥♥♥
I am so very sorry. I wish there were a way to make the pain go away, or at least ease it, but we know only time does that. Sending you all big hugs.
ReplyDeleteWe are so sorry for your loss. You did what you felt was right, that's what matters.
ReplyDeleteSierra, I hope you realize just how blessed Lita was to have you. She knew how much you loved her, how much you will always love her. In return, she's certainly watching over you now. Prayers and hugs to you.
ReplyDeleteDearest Lita, so brave till the end, and you were brave too, and did all you could... Our heart reaches out to you all at this time, and may the warmth and love and friendship of those around you and your fond memories be your staff and bring you safe passage to the happier days that will come...
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ERin and Mrs H
Rest in peace Lita. There are many who have gone before and you can run free with them, healthy and happy with no aches or pains. Hugs and purrs to you Lita.
ReplyDeleteTyping thru the flood of tears for you Sierra & Bad Man D & Carmine. I am so so sorry Milita had to leave all of you. You did everything in your power to help her these past months & are the most devoted Cat Mum I know. Please do not beat yourself up.....I know I'm still doing that re: Siddhartha Henry but we shouldn't. I won't say you'll feel better in a few days or a few weeks....It will take time for you to find a new 'normal' & you will. And you have all of us here. I can see Milita running with Nylablue meowing about the boys admiring them. And Purrince Siddhartha Henry is watching over them with love.
ReplyDeleteSending you gentle {{{hugs}}} Sherri-Ellen & **purrs** from BellaDharma
We are so sorry for your loss,sometimes it happens so quick in the end that no matter how hard you try to get to the vets to help them pass we just run out of time,please have no regrets,just remember she was loved and that is all that matters,xxx Rachel and Speedy
ReplyDeleteSierra and Carmine, my heart is breaking for you. Even knowing it was coming one day doesn't make it any easier. She couldn't have had a better home than with you, and she will be watching over you always.
ReplyDeleteI'm here to pay my respects to Lita. *bows* The tears will flow but someday when you think of her, you'll remember a couple of funny things that she did which will make you smile.
ReplyDeleteShe knew how much you loved her and all you did for her. Be at peace, beautiful girl.
ReplyDeletePlease accept our sincere condolences as you grieve the loss of your beautiful girl, Milita. We know you both will be reunited again and continue to share in the love you have known. We also know she will remain in your heart and loved always. Rest in Peace, Milita. XOCK, angel Lily Olivia, Mauricio, Misty May, Giulietta, angel Fiona, Astrid, Lisbeth, Calista Jo, Cooper Murphy and Sawyer
ReplyDeleteI know words cannot express how deeply sorry and sad I am for you Sierra. I understand in very vivid detail how you are feeling about Milita. All I can offer is for you to go gentle on yourself, you did all you could and you did what you felt was the right course. Milita knew you did all you could, and she would be grateful to you for all the care and all the love, for she returned it to you in spades. My deepest condolences. I am so sorry. Truly I am. Prayers.
ReplyDeleteWe are so deeply, deeply sorry to learn about Milita going to the Bridge. We know how deeply you loved her, we understand the pain you are experiencing and are sending (((hugs))) of comfort.
ReplyDeleteWe're so, so sorry to hear about Lita. We send you comforting purrs and gentle headbonks. We know how much you loved her, and how much she will be missed. Purrs and hugs
ReplyDeleteI can't even express everything I'm feeling, from deep sorrow, to appreciation for having known this beautiful creature even if only through the net, to awe of the care you gave her for so long, above and beyond what anyone could have expected. Your love gave her the gift of an extra year of life. And I know it feels like nowhere near enough, but it was a gift. So is having had you for her mom.
ReplyDeleteOh, I am so sorry ! You did everything you could - she just knew her time. I am sorry you had to watch her in pain, but do not blame yourself> She rallied and held on to have a little more time with you and Carmine, and she will still be watching over you with love. She knew she was loved.Purrayers you & D and Carmine will find peace in knowing you will never forget her !
ReplyDeleteWe're so very sorry. You were the best pet parent any kitty could ask for. Sending lots of love and hugs. I know how hard this is. <3
ReplyDeleteI just heard, Sierra I am crying as I write, I know Milita had the best cat mom and you did your best for her. Thank you for being the world's best cat mum to her.
ReplyDeleteYou did wonderfully by her, every moment you could. Thank you and rest is Peace Milita.
I am deeply sorry Sierra. I know the sorrow and pain. Hugs and more hugs and soft paw. XX
ReplyDeleteSo very sorry for Militia departure to the Bridge. Hopefully, my Kali will show her the ropes and I'm sure she has many friends that left before her so they can show her about.
ReplyDeleteJean
Waiting in Paradise. It is so difficult when they go ahead of us, but think what life would have been like if they didn't share theirs with us. Nine l ives are not einough.
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry that you had to say goodbye under such difficult circumstances. Please don’t give in to guilt. Militia was loved beyond measure and she knew it. {{hugs}}
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry. Rest in peace, sweet girl. Run young and pain free once again at the Bridge.
ReplyDeleteThis is a heartbreaking story, I'm so sorry to hear about her passing. You can be certain you did all you could, she had a wonderful life. I'm so sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteThe love remains.
ReplyDeleteIt's been such a long up and down hill battle for her. We're sorry she didn't come back this time. Know losing her is hard Hugs!
ReplyDeleteShe will dance again beyond the Bridge, and wait for you to arrive one day. Spitty and I are sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteSo deeply sorry you had to let go of your sweet girl. It's heartbreaking :'( Soft Pawkisses to comfort you <3 Fly free beautiful Soul💗💗💗
ReplyDeleteWe are heartbroken. Sweet Milita, we are so sorry to hear you were called to the Bridge but know that you went surrounded with love and are at ease at last. Look up the Colehaus Cats angels, especially angel ManCat Maxx who we think has a crush on you. Sending love, hugs and the softest of purrs.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for your loss. RIP, sweet Milita.
ReplyDeleteWe are so very sorry for your loss. Purrs of comfort and paws of sympathy. Sweet Milita will be missed by all of us.
ReplyDeleteWe are broken hearted dear Sierra. We loved little Milita and were so glad she made her birthday. Dear sweet Milita please watch over this family while you are flying above on your new wings. We shall all meet again someday and we know our Family Angels welcome you. We are crying with you and send love and support your way.
ReplyDeleteTimmy, Pete, Toby, Buddy, Rumpy, Miss Fitz and Einstein
We haz been too sads to comment until now... We prayed and prayed for Milita and I know that she struggled so much with her health. What kept her here so long was your love for her. I know how much love can sustain a kitty for longer than expected... Helped my mother's cat, Kitty have long life in spite of having FIV. We will miss you dear Lita, yet you are waiting fur you Mommy and Carmine and one day you will all be reunited... Psalm 36:6
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